not so lost in the web

So I often find myself on the computer just staring. I know I've seen a million sites in magazines and ad's....but when I'm here I draw a blank. Today while "eating my bonbons" I opened up the internet and read some email.....then nothing!!! I had nothing of interest to look for! Where have all the cool sites gone?? I need those flashing banners of "hey come visit www." giving me somewhere to go! Or one of those little reminder recorders that they sell on informercials!!! After I post this I'll shut down and well close up. No fun being not so lost!

cold and dreary day

So I've sort of been sad today. I don't really have a reason. It was cold and rainy out. I'm really tired. Who knows. Just a sad day I guess. 

It's not even winter and we've all been sick already. My daughter is sooo cranky when she sick (must get that from Daddy, hehe) and my son is in the "follow my big sister around" phase so that's fun!! 

I just finished reading a friends blog. Wow I'm not only entering blog posts I'm reading others!!!! Anyway, she made me think. I'm missing just being a Mom. Something took over me when my daughter started more days a preschool. I felt like I needed to become the organized, cleaning, perfect Mom and Housewife (wow I hate that term). But why?? My husband doesn't expect me to go back to work yet. We've talked about it, he said those exact words to me. Ok so he'd like to see dinner at least in the works...but he'll never actually say that!! He's not a neat freak so really the house is never just my issue. I just don't know what happen. I think I started to feel guilty. Which in turn made me sad. 

So I'm going to take time to smell the roses. Maybe not focus every day school is in session and the baby is sleeping on cleaning. Maybe I can find those bonbons and soap operas that people not in the stay at home mom realm seem to think goes on!!

100 years

So today would have been my Great Grandmothers 100th Birthday. She passed away in January. So today we'll have dinner with my Grandma, her daughter, my Great Aunt, her sister, and the rest of the 5 generations of us! We'll have some dinner, look through some pictures and hopefully have a nice day remembering 100 years that made Grandmas life wonderful.